Radical Honesty.

I think one major thing that we all need to be honest with ourselves about is that we take life far too seriously. Does that mean you shouldn't work on yourself or you shouldn't take your creative work seriously; no. It means that you shouldn't pressurise yourself into action. Pressure just creates more pressure and you will feel trapped in a cycle of negativity as you struggle to break out of it. It's like quick sand, the more you struggle, the faster you will sink. You just need to relax and take action by grabbing something nearby to pull yourself out. 

Look for positivity at your lowest points when you feel like you are in a deep and endless pit. Look for it in anything, like watching a funny video or just dancing on your own to some music you love. Motion creates emotion as they say. I've been feeling un-motivated these last couple of days and as if I am sinking into a sea of negativity and lack. I often feel like something is missing and I look for it out there through self development, gaming, money - anything really. Its all the same shit, it just wears a different mask. What I'm starting to realise is that I need to open up with myself and with everyone else I come into contact with. Especially with the people closest to me. 

I don't want to live a life of falseness where by I'm constantly putting on this front or mask of who I want to be, instead of just being who I am. I fucking hate labels, so I'm not going to write out a list of shit that I think I am, because it would probably be inaccurate anyway. I'm just going to say that the more I write this shit, the more I feel something leaving me. I feel like negativity is being drained.

I had dreams for this site when I created it about a week ago, I tend to project massively and ambitiously into the future. One example is that I literally want to create a film that changes the way people think fundamentally, to change their perspective on life in a positive way. But who the fuck am I to say what's best for the population. I haven't got a clue whats best for the population or even myself in some ways. I just stumble around in the dark most of the time, then I discover a bit of light and share what I discover through my art and writing or however else I feel is the best way to express said light (Knowledge) etc. 

"Kindly let me help you or you will drown," Said the monkey putting the fish safely up a tree - Alan Watts

I think too many self development websites, brands and just people in general are constantly selling us something. Like "LOOK AT THIS, ISN'T IT AMAZING...LOVE ME." As a fundamental rule I think that we just don't respond to that shit (We may get sucked into bull shit from time to time, but know deep down somethings not right),we respond to the REAL. Obviously selling a product or yourself to another individual has technical rules and shit, but why not just be natural. Remember your parents used to say "Be yourself." What they really meant was; "Be yourself, because I know that's what is incredible about you and all of humanity - but I'm afraid to be myself, so don't be like me, be yourself please." But when we are kids we follow by example more than anything else, so our parents say this and we are like; "Be myself, but what the fuck is being myself, be like you, but you are not being yourself, you are fucking stifled and lost and trying to force all these ideas on me all the time, so I have no fucking idea how to be myself." 

Damn that was a rant, but thats some pure honesty for you right there. Well as much as I could muster. It's hard being honest, but it feels damn good.